Cuties

It’s been a while since I’ve posted on here but I don’t know where else to go. I’m not creatively blocked, I have so many ideas and different outlets. Like do I blog? Do I make a tiktok? Do I Youtube? Fuck IG and FB tho hahahaha.

I’ve had some insomnia too. Like I can’t stop downloading info and it’s all bad. I just want to know all of it and I don’t know why. It’s like I’m addicted to News, but not mainstream media news, the actual News. You know, Twitter.

I got sucked into several Twitter rabbit holes including #CancelNetflix, which I did ages ago. I actually bought Netflix stock in my early 20s (10 years ago) and sold it when it was below $100. They still mailed DVDs at that point.

I recently submitted to a pitching competition where the prize is a chance to pitch to Netflix. The idea I pitched was legit so similar to the message of Cuties but I made my characters older teens who could be portrayed by adults in their 20s, like Zendaya. But my pitch has the same message about the oversexualization of children, it was mainly about social media though, not the competitive dancing world, which is actually SUPER problematic and should be looked at.

You don’t have to exploit children in the process of trying to make a statement about the exploitation of children. Ever since I started “working” in the entertainment industry (which was the day I was unknowingly cast in a hidden camera prank show and paid $30! My first paid TV gig lol), I have felt very uncomfortable consuming entertainment where children are the main actors. All the crew are adults and a set is no place even for an adult tbh.

What is sickening about all the Cuties footage is that those girls did multiple takes of these scenes and there was a bunch of crew watching these girls. I only found 2 of their ages- 14 and 12… that’s too young for touching their crotches and each other’s butts. It’s crazy how this got approved by so many people. The French be insane.

But seriously this footage is so disturbing and a sign of a greater problem.

Another thing I think about is how many truthers have been saying for YEARS that they’re trying to normalize pedophilia and it’s crazy how everything just keeps coming true. It felt good to see the outcry and that a country banned the movie. It rly is child porn 😦

but Netflix has been depraved for a while, and no one is talking about that. I mean the header on their twitter page is… Lucifer.

bruh 😭

Anyway, Mmmmkay-ultra.

omg.

I made this gif in 5 seconds, I love the internet.

NOW THERE’S SO MANY KANYES

I am watching this video

and it is so good. Kanye is not crazy the same way I’M not crazy! I have been ostracized, openly called weird and a loser, all because I think the same way as Kanye. I remember being in a work environment where everyone I was working with hated Kanye. Not just wasn’t into his music, but HATED him. And I loved Kanye, I identify so much with Kanye and I love his music, it has helped me through the hardest shit of my life. It was there when NOBODY else was. When my own family kicked me out of my house with violence. Literally kicked me, Kanye is one reason why I kept going. No one else was there, even the people who were supposed to be there.

So when people say awful things about him like call him crazy or stupid, they might as well be saying those things about me. It was rough that 3rd day of Gov Ball. I was going to be working during Kanye’s set, but just being in the same environment where live music is playing that I love gives me an energy bolt.

So the show being cancelled felt personal. I know it wasn’t in reality, but that’s not where I live! I’m not out here pretending like I live in the same world we’ve been programmed to live in when I know damn well we all live in our worlds because everything is created in our minds.

I’m already afraid to even post this and why? My header has always been Kanye holding a sign with JUNK FEUD on it.

I’m gonna get to the bottom of this.

EDIT 01/15/2018: WOW. Of course Youtube removed the video. Great job illuminati *sarcastic hand claps*

where tf is Kanye?

Since I wrote my last post asking about Kanye’s whereabouts, this has all gotten more fucked up. Kanye deleted his Twitter AND his Instagram. So it’s no longer about him not updating, he is ~disappeared~.

I just finished watching this video on Youtube about Kanye. It was his “last interview” before “hospitalized”…

But I feel like he gave this interview way before his hospitalization because I remember it but I’m not sure I ever really listened to it if/when I watched it.

I am thinking back to last year. I was working Governor’s Ball and Kanye was performing on Day 3, Sunday. The show was cancelled because of a threat of thunder storms so there was no Gov Ball Day 3 at all. I still had to work though because that’s how life works. I remember it being one of the worst days of my life but the weather was absolutely perfect. At the time Kanye would have gone on, the weather was immaculate. It wasn’t too hot or too cold. It was just comfortable. No rain at all. The sunset on that day was also one of the most beautiful I’ve EVER seen in my entire existence. For a music festival, a sunset like that with such perfect weather would have been epic.

So of course because I’m highly dubious about our reality…………… I had my suspicions about this whole thing. The day before Gov Ball 2016 Day 2, it RAINED SO HARD I ALMOST DIED. And I had to haul trash throughout it while the killers were playing. Maybe I did die. I don’t fucking know.

I understand the show was cancelled because lightning is very dangerous in open air around so much electronic equipment, but it didn’t even rain once on that day. The weather has never been wronger. It’s like someone bought out Big Weather so that Kanye couldn’t headline and play live music while I was MAKING MONEY. Yeah I’m bringing myself into this because why the fuck not? Everyone else is out there doing whatever the fuck they want apparently. Where’s Kanye???????

CAN’T

A

YOUNG

NIGGA

GET

MONEY

ANYMORE??????????

I’m out. I’ll DEFINITELY be writing more about this l8er.

Where’s Kanye?

I’m a little worried about Kanye because he’s literally fallen off the map, the radar, the social media sphere. I understand that people sometimes need time away from the public and that’s okay, except for all these weird things like Kim posting this suspiciously ‘shopped looking photo of her and Kanye on her insta:

 

I’m really hoping she just applied some weird vintage filter that’s making it look photoshopped, but I don’t know.

Kanye hasn’t made any new twitter posts since February. I watched Get Out. Things are weird and I just have to say something about it. It’s affecting me ok.